The current state of my back is completely unsustainable. I could deal with having to use a back support when I sit and maintaining a strict exercise regimen and altering the way I bend and lift and twist. You know, I'm even able to accept the fact that I'll never run again, or probably play tennis, or golf, or really any sport.
But what I can't deal with is not being able to sit in a fucking chair and play a game of sequence without back pain. I have to adjust the types of clothes that I wear because certain belts and waistbands put stress on my back. I couldn't sleep in my brother's bed because his memory foam mattress was causing me too much pain. You get the picture.
I'm in a stupid amount of pain. I am 19 years old, and I want to go on road trips and dance and camp and jump around and sit and play board games and practice piano and punch people and go on roller coasters and be tickled and none of that is possible! I know I'm being dramatic, but I feel like my youth has been taken away from me and I don't know if I'll ever get it back. I want my life back- this is horrible and unfair.
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