Productivity

Right now it's 5:20pm, and I haven't done any practicing today, nor have I begun working on the medical payments my mom wants me to take care of. I have spent the majority of my day napping, eating, reading, and wasting time--all things that I thoroughly enjoy.

But amidst this enjoyment is a muffled sense of guilt... I hear that voice inside my head (my voice, of course) reminding me that I should be practicing, or earning money, or selling stuff. I had such high ambitions for this summer! And here it's already mid-June and I haven't accomplished anything on the saxophone... except for some sparse work on a few etudes and a review of scale patterns.

Once I start lessons this summer, I anticipate my lazy days coming to an end. Roy always has a way of bringing me back down to earth, whether I like it or not.

At any rate, I tell myself that my lowered ability to function is due partially to the problems I've been having with my back. Things were going fine most of the school year because I was biking and being active, but when I came home, I did a bunch of nothing and then a bunch of traveling, which hurt it a lot. Right now, I'm taking a bunch of Aleve and doing physical therapy, but I still can't sit down for more than half an hour without a lot of pain. Tomorrow, I start having actual physical therapy sessions with Alan, and I'm hoping that he'll get me feeling a lot better. I don't remember what it feels like to not have back pain, and my fear is that it will never really go away. In some ways, I've learned to deal with it, but every once in a while, I get really frustrated and scared, because I know I'm going to have to battle this my whole life.

On a more positive note, Kevin got his license and drove to summer school by himself today!! Kids grow up so fast... :) Also, I got an email today saying the Baylor Wind Ensemble was selected to play at 2012 TMEA! I am so happy for them/us... Man, what a stellar group. I'm listening to our Scenes from the Louvre recording and it's so good! I miss college band!